Hey guys. So it’s 12:38 in the morning, but something just happened that prompted me to write this.
I told you guys earlier that I liked an unavailable guy. Well, this unavailable guy just so happens to be a really good friend of mine. We talk on the phone, Facetime, Snapchat, and text each other a lot, and I feel like I can tell him anything. What he didn’t know was that for a while now, I’ve had feelings for him.
That all changed tonight. We were talking on the phone for at least an hour, when he told me about something that happened between him and this other girl he likes. He spared no details while discussing the intimate interaction….
The whole time he was telling me this, I was just like, okay… This is really awkward since he’s telling me about his flirtations with another girl, while oblivious to the fact that I like him. Eventually I was just like, okay screw it. I’m just gonna tell him how I actually feel about him, just because we were on that touchy subject anyway.
So I told him. It wasn’t awkward. He just kinda squeezed it out of me in his understanding voice. As predicted, he doesn’t reciprocate these feelings of attraction, since he likes another girl. But we agreed to still be friends, and I will get over it. I have been in the process of getting over him, actually. I knew it wouldn’t work out between us, and I never suspected he liked me back. I thought I had gotten over him completely, until he started telling me about his feelings for another girl, which tugged at my heartstrings.
Okay, I feel a lot better after writing this entry. Writing is so cathartic… it takes the edge off of painful emotions and brings you clarity.
I’m really glad my “ex-crush” and I can still be the friends we were… Hopefully.